chessia's life

2005-04-08T21:48:00.000+08:00

i've moved.

its HERE now. x))

2005-04-08T19:54:00.000+08:00

im looking at the conversation. but my minds blank. i cant think of anything to say to him. bahs.

im feeling down. and sick. as in sick sick not sick sick. yea. if you actually saw me for the past two or three days. ya. now i understand how blind people feel. its really hard to be blind. you dont have a sense of direction. you dont know whats coming. you dont know what is going around you. it really is frustrating.

how do i know? i got an allergic reaction yesterday. yeaps. then my freaking eye kinda swelled up. so i spent like a period and a half in the sick bay. ((: darn! yups. and while walking back to class. i almost fell down. yup. then when i walked to the toilet from class. i banged into the wall. FREAK.

i kind of miss band. didnt go for band for two days. yea. i miss everyone!! but they wont miss me. yeaps i kno.

*coughs* i need to go sleep.

lovelove;
chess_x.copyrighted

2005-04-03T13:00:00.000+08:00

so blogging with all those capital letters aint such a good idea. it looks weird on my book.

oh sheesh. i just realized that it is one already. i've wasted three hours of my sunday staring at this freaking screen. heh. and i missed jackie chan on kids central. sad! just too bad i dont have cable. otherwise i'd be on the tv the whole day instead of here.

going out for brunch soon. well. as soon as my bro and mom gets home. hehes.

2005-04-03T10:13:00.000+08:00

Oh good. I'm finally back online blogging. ((:

But I'm still kind of bored. You see. My dad took away the monitor of the other com. And all my stuff are in THAT com. And apprently I'm too lazy to connect this monitor to the other CPU. Heh. I'm crapping.

Yucks. There's nothing on TV. Heh. So I'm like watching power rangers now? HAHAS. Retard!!

Bleahs. I'm hungry. Off to get some more Hello Panda. ((:

2005-03-27T19:18:00.000+08:00

oh yes! oh yes!

he's over and done with that shit.

good!

i'm going out NOW!!!

2005-03-27T19:13:00.000+08:00

oh shit. if i my bro doesnt finish his stupid math project quick and get us out of the house. i might go mad. (note: my might mean would) so ya. shit.

why?

a) im really hungry. in other words, famished.
b) im really desperate for my prepaid card. (cos my line got confiscated yesterday. cos my bill went above 50.)
c) there's nothing to do here.

so... YA.

QUICK FINISH YOR WORK YU FREAKING ASS!!!

2005-03-26T20:15:00.000+08:00

i hate that stupid feeling.

oh gees.

i just realized that my shoulders are burnt and red. ((:

oh wells. got this stupid nostalgic feeling in me now. yucks. hate it. hate it. hate it so much. ((: i wish i could go back in time. mann. sad. sad. sad. )):

i think i'm going to close my 2nd ear hole. it freaking hurt when phy took it out this afternoon. ((:

i hate it when ppl just dao me like that. i hate it so so much.

)):

2005-03-25T00:53:00.000+08:00

this is absolutely gay.

my cbox is in bad shape.

)):

wahahas. playing pool with yu quan. apprently i LOST la. i shot the white ball in! WOO!

2005-03-25T00:08:00.000+08:00

i don wanna be lonely no more

i hate the feeling of being alone.

imagine.

yu are lying on yor bed. and next to yu on the side table sits yor phone. and its not ringing or beeping or vibrating or what-so-ever. and its like yu are really really wishing that someone would message yu, or call yu. yea. but they dont.

i hate that.

i hate it when no one calls.

i hate it when no one messages.

and i loathe it when i text people, they never reply.

by the way, do yu kno? im freaking feeling like this now. ok?

and apprently only SOMEONE can like save me from this feeling? yea? argggh! and listening to chantal kreviazuk's leaving on a jet plane and almost here by delta goodrem and brian mcfadden doesnt really help. it just makes it WORST. argh!

shit.

i'm on the verge of crying and calling him.

OH NO YU DONT.

2005-03-23T23:26:00.000+08:00

rocks!! (boulders, stones, pebbles, etc)

i've got deviantart!! ((;

2005-03-23T20:02:00.000+08:00

wahahas. crap man! i mean today. ARGH.

okies. trying to do a math assignment again. yea. BUT I CANT TYPE OUT THOSE FREAKING STUFFS. x)

oh wells. going to change blogskin again!! WHEEEE!

oh man. oh yea. i love drawing!

i love poifull.

i love that chocolate coated gummy. WHAHAS. donno the name tho. x)

2005-03-22T23:11:00.000+08:00

oh shucks

slacking rocks. i just cant get enough of it man. ((:

i feel like pon-ing oral tomorrow. ((: get zero la! X: no i obviously cant. LIKE DUHS! i'll freaking fail my chinese man. *grins*

ive not completed a single piece of homework ya? as in the homework given since school started AGAIN. ((:

oh wells. sup to be doing a math online assignment now. but here i am, doing what i do best. SLACKING. ((:

2005-03-21T22:31:00.000+08:00

i cant believe it.

im going to lose my brother soon.

im going into a state of DEPRESSION.

2005-03-21T21:10:00.000+08:00

enya- may it be

may it be an evening star
shines down upon yu
may it be when darkness falls
yor heart will be true
yu walk a lonely road
oh, how far yu are from home

mornië utúlië
believe and yu will find yor way
mornië alantië
a promise lives within yu now

may it be the shadows call
will fly away
may it be yor journey on
to light the day
when the night is overcome
yu may rise to find the sun

mornië utúlië
believe and yu will find yor way
mornië alantië
a promise lives within yu now

a promise lives within yu now

2005-03-21T20:40:00.000+08:00

dang.

school's started.

wasn't really fun ya? apart for pe. ((: had such a great time going against that stupid woman. then science was slack. learnt about that moment thingy. uhhuh uhhuh.

math was like so freak. YEA. didn't get in anything into my head today. and ya. flunked my e math test. 6.5 ok? and ya. after lunch. chinese. SUPER SIAN. heh. so went to sick bay again la. ((: pro hur? *nods nods*

I WANNA WATCH ROMEO AND JULIET NOW!!!

i'm CRAVING for it. X: oh man! oh man!

oh ya. should i go tmr? as in to tampines stadium?? sheesh.

I WANNA WATCH ALL THE LOTR MOVIES NOW!!!

darn. i'm CRAVING for movies. uhhuh uhhuh.

oh man. mihekiliknihti.

sheesh!

2005-03-20T14:35:00.000+08:00

life's been a blast during the hols.

been sleeping till 1+,
been going out real often,
been messaging all day,
been talking on the phone till 3+ (at times),
been getting scolded by my dad almost everyday,
been lying to my mom that im going to watch movies when i acutally didnt,
been slacking in my room instead of doing my homework,

yea! ((: life's been GREAT.

but now that its the sunday BEFORE SCHOOL STARTS AGAIN, ive gotta do SOMETHING about my homework. MAN! IM SO FREAKING DEAD!

lets see, ive got like my a math, my e math, my chinese zuo wen which im not going to bother to do, my history seq which i owe ms kaur for like 2 week already, my english compre's summary. ya. i think that about all. but its still a whole pile man! damned.

mdm tan's gonna screw my arse when i get back to school. so is ms kaur and that worthless educator (i.e my chinese teacher). yeap. ive gotta arm myself with sarcastic remarks and that million dollar face when i see them tmr. ((:

ohwells. gotta get back to my a math.

tatas!!!

2005-03-18T22:45:00.000+08:00

damn! i had so so so much fun today man! ((:

ha2s.

sheesh. i was super bitchy to a bitch. ((: oh well. bitches are bitchy right? o.O? whatever. she's dissing me now. and ya. that bitch violated my bro. she's going to fucking burn in hell. HEH.

damned. he HOT. ((: not him. but him. if yu get what i mean.

2005-03-16T20:36:00.000+08:00

i had a really great talk ytd night. ((: ha2s.

damn. i don believe that neone wud WAN to die before 25. but that was in the past. i was enlightened ytd night by justin. he was like "i wan tu die while sufing in hawaii". ha2s. that's really mad hur? ha2s. then we continued talking till 3+. ((:

late hur?

sighs. gotta finish another unit from that stupid a math ten year series before i can go out tmr. ((: but thats easy. solving of simultaneous equations. SO SO EASY. HAHAS.

2005-03-15T22:45:00.000+08:00

beautiful soul
jesse mccartney

i don wan another pretty face
i don wan jus anyone tu hold
i don wan my love to go tu waste
i wan yu ann yor beautiful soul

i kno tt yu are something special
tu yu, id be always faithful
i wan tu be
whard yu always needed
dhen i'll hope yu see the heart in me

[chorus]
i don wan another pretty face
i don wan jus anyone tu hold
i don wan my love tu go tu waste
i wan yu ann yor beautiful soul
yu're dhe one i wanna chase
yu're dhe one I wanna hold
i won let another min go tu waste
i wan yu ann yor beautiful soul

yor beautiful soul, yeah

yu might need time tu tink it over
bt im jus fine moving forward
i'll ease yor mind if yu gave me the chance
i'll never make yu cry c'mon let's try

[chorus]
i don wan another pretty face
i don wan jus anyone tu hold
i don wan my love tu go tu waste
i wan yu ann yor beautiful soul
yu're dhe one i wanna chase
yu're dhe one I wanna hold
i won let another min go tu waste
i wan yu ann yor beautiful soul

am i crazy fur wanting yu
maybe do yu tink yu cld wan me tuu
i don wanna waste yor time
do yu see tings the way I do
i jus wanna kno tt yu feel it too
dhere is nth left to hide

i don wan another pretty face
i don wan jus anyone tu hold
i don wan my love tu go tu waste
i wan yu ann yor beautiful soul
yu're dhe one i wanna chase
yu're dhe one I wanna hold
i won let another min go tu waste
i wan yu ann yor beautiful soul [x2]

beautiful soul, yeah
oh, yeah
yor beautiful soul, yeah

2005-03-15T20:57:00.000+08:00

i hate insects.

ha2s. guess what? a stupid insect was crawling on the floor while i was playing pagan. HAHA. crap neh. when i stopped playing, i looked for that freaking thing, IT WAS GONE KAE? gone to nowhere. freaky hur?

yay! going to watch movie neh! ((:

2005-03-15T01:20:00.000+08:00

friendster has screwed up at the perfect time. AGAIN.

i'd literally love to fuck friendster upside down.

2005-03-14T21:32:00.000+08:00

ok.

holiday homework's stressing me. ((:

went for band today. showed my damned bloody attitude today. ((: i tore up the comments on the other bands in front of yao zong today. fine la. i kno that he's going to tell one of the teachers-in-charge sooner or later. and someone told me that they'll send me for counseling (or however yu spell that word).

ytd went to watch breakdance competition at ps. so shuang. sat/stood there for like about 4 hours. ((: pro neh? during the competition saw loads of cute guys la. ha2s. aft competition, hy and i were debating on whether to go get this guy's number. ha2s. played scissors paper stone. I LOST. so i went to ask. ha2s. fine la. but he's so cute neh! ha2s. got his no in the end!! ((: REJOYICE. btw, im SO NOT despo. ((:

btw, im going to learn how to Dj during the june hols. i so swear that im going to learn.

i AM going to.

2005-03-11T20:26:00.000+08:00

ok. so i got in. and now that i got in, i'm afraid that i won't do well. what if i ran slow? what if i tripped? OH GOSH. the whole school'd HATE me. HA2S.

ok. i went for band. was intending to pon it since my leg was hurting like HELL. but yu see. IN THE END I WENT. *good girl*

then after band raced with chan xi and wai teng. so song. i won. ((: pro hur? but then got stitch after that. then came home that time, leg cramp.

sian. boring boring me. ((:

sianifyed`chess
iihartt[esuum]

2005-03-07T17:52:00.000+08:00

oh puh-lease. stop going around saying that yu've found yor ROMEO. oh puh-lease. who'd like yu? slutty, bitchy, loud-mouthed. *rolls eyes* and ya. dun go arnd kissing guys. thanks. if they dun wan to kiss yu. dont FORCE them tu. it aint' very nice yu kno?

yu kno, i take back wut i said bout the HIM in the previous post. ((: ive found someone worst then HIM. ((:

__________________

lessons were totally boring today. but i actually paid attention to them. WOW! ((:

ha2s.

after lunch break was like ms lim's lesson. but yu see. apprently she din come. *HOORAY* so that stupid mr sim came in and gave us our e math quizz. *YUCK* our whole class wus like not bothered tu do la. so rock. then some of us took out our e math notebook and used it as reference. so rock right? ha2s.

sian ah! tmr have physics test. then wednesday have e math and chinese test. then again, thursday have history. sianded!

COUNTDOWN:

5 more days to hols! WOOSH!

2005-03-06T12:47:00.000+08:00

these few days has been a total waste of my life. ((:

ive nt been doing neting constructive. ok. maybe finishing my a math HOMEWORK was constructive.

things tt i kno i hav tu do but hav nt done dem yet (in short: things that i hav nt done)

1) study for physics test.
2) study for elective history test.
3) study for chinese test.
4) do filing for all subjects (esp a math).
5) compile all notes.
6) go study now.

and guess what. 5 out of the 6 things that ive listed ~~down~~ up there has to be done by next week. and look at me (i kno yu carn), im still sitting down here blogging. well, i figure this is how i got intu combined sciences. *sighs*

ytd was crazy. i went fur tutorials in the morning. everyone was so so sleepy. he2s. then aft tutorials, i HAD tu go fur theory. and i ACUTALLY WENT. (im a good girl!) then during theory, sin and i were eating INSTEAD of listening to yao zong teach. (psst. yao zong cant teach. ha2s.) then i ask yz what time we could leave then guess what he said. "i cun possibly teach faster because of the three of yu. the sec ones who are there still dun know all these things. these are all that yu three are supposed to kno." i wus absolutely pissed. ((: then after that, he called me to do the time signature thing on the board. so guess what i did. i diaoed him when i took the marker from his hand. ((:

i kno i shud respect my seniors. but hey! i wus really pissed off. and yu kno what pissed off ppl can do. ((:

aft theory, chiong-ed to SP to meet them. hahas. crapped in Mcs. ha2s. the usuals. dissed some people. (x sighs.

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shucks. im begning to loathe HIM. why cant he jus leave people alone? i hate him for telling them off. they were jus having some fun ya? yu neednt tell them to shut up and go wash their mouths with soap ya? they're still young. and young people want to have fun. ya? tell me yu werent like that, and id call yu abnormal. oh wait. i forgot. yu ARE abnormal already. *rolls eyes*

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this feels like a dissing post. no good. x)

ah lalalala.

im going tu study now. ((:

p.s wendy, dunch care bout her. yu kno who im refering tu!

2005-03-04T20:50:00.000+08:00

i heart you.

i heart you.

i heart you.

i heart you.

i heart you.

((:

bleahs. what a day. i flunked my a math with a pathetic score of TWO marks. aint' i good? ((:

2005-03-02T20:05:00.000+08:00

sianah!

chem test was hard for them. so it'll mean that it'll be harder for us i.e those who didn't take the test today. bleahs. good luck to all who're taking the test on friday! ((: jia you!

ok. my tagboard's not working. ((: yay! (damned it.)

ok. i've got go study tomorrow. OR PREPARE TO FAIL YOUR TESTS NEXT WEEK! *followed by evil laugher*

btw, did you hear st hilda's band? they rock my world kae? they've got the power. their choice piece rocks my world too. ((: hahas. did you see wendy's blog? i can't belive that they i.e theresa, chan xi and wendy were planning to bomb st hilda's band room and kill some of their band members. -.- why can't they just sabo the instruments. aint' it easier? ^_^ (i'm worst then them.)

ohwells. ((: guud larkk tuu thhe bannd fuur syf wors~ ((: figure 13. thhe killa figure. ((:

2005-02-28T18:44:00.000+08:00

duu ii nnoe any meridithh or howw evva her/hiis namme is spelt??

shuckks. iim doomed. dhiin finishh my SS testt siias. faiil diing lerr. T.T hehhs.

wuus talkking baad bouut ~~suumwaan~~ tuu ppll tuuday. bhuurt ii dhorrn feel baad. HA!

siiandiiao. tmr guurt exxchange untiiu ten pluus. )): no tiime thuu stardee fuur wednessdae de chhem test. siians. seems liike iim prepared tuu faiil all my testts. )):

*wennt tuu duu amatth_*

p.s. whhen phyy lauughs, shhe carrn stop. ((:

p.p.s ii hate raiin. (okk. iits niice whhen yuu liike listenn tuu iit INDOORS. yuu get whhard ii mean?)

2005-02-26T20:50:00.000+08:00

i hate HER. you know, we like nicknamed her SUPER STICKY GLUE? everyday follow us around. after band prac, follow us out. follow us to bubble tea shop. follows us to parkway. etc, etc. hate her man! no one talks to her and she still keeps following us around. stupid dog. say woof!

i hate HER. we all hate HER. at least the ~~few~~ many of us HATE her. right?

darned. i'm hungry again. i like just finshed dinner? ok. i ate very little for dinner. no. i didn't. whatever. i'm going to get a cuppa chocolate milk to drink. whheeee! i love milk!! ((:

2005-02-25T22:48:00.000+08:00

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

I know that you are something special
To you I'd be always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

You're the one I want to chase
You're the one I want to hold
I won't let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

You might need time to think it over
But I'm just fine moving forward
I'll ease your mind
If you give me the chance
I will never make you cry
C'mon let's try

Am I crazy for wanting you?
Maybe do you think you could want me too?
I don't wanna waste your time
Do you see things the way I do?
I just wanna know if you feel it too
There is nothing left to hide

2005-02-25T22:19:00.000+08:00

rahhx! supper boring now.

hehs. was talking to my couus juus now. hhur2. he waans grrace's piic! huur2. sho rawwk sia! (x hhahas. at leaast thhere werre tuu ppl savving mii fruum dyiing ofh boredomm. bhuurt botth arr gonne ler. *criies* saad siias.

bbbboooorrrdddooommmee iiissssssss kkkkiiilllllliiiinn miii. geddit?

good morning!

good afternoon!

goodnight!

shugarrdreams!

rmmb to dreaam ofh mii! (x

lame + lame = handicappedd.

2005-02-24T21:00:00.000+08:00

i'm angry. i'm angry with i donno what the hell it is. yahh. correct. i donno.

went for individuals. crapped in band. we tried to aviod her again. but apprently she stuck like glue. X: super glue i meant. then went to bubble tea shop. someone stared at us like we were monkeys in the zoo. *blink blink*

a math test again tomorrow. i cant afford to fail. x)

*went to study_*

2005-02-22T19:30:00.000+08:00

bleahs. tmr guurt tan eng chiu's lesson.

she's mad. she confiscated my pencil case just cause i was putting my pens into it. stupid cuckoo. *rolls eyes* i warna box her!!!!

i hate her.

2005-02-20T20:45:00.000+08:00

oh great. i'm using that stupid samsung phone again. argh. freakingcrap.

darned it. its 8.45. yes. and i've not touched my homework yet. yeaps. i'm doomed.

2005-02-20T18:26:00.000+08:00

i'msofedupwithmynewphone.

i'mgoingtosellitandbuyanotherphone.

freakingshit.

2005-02-19T23:29:00.000+08:00

ah shucks.

i slammed my leg against the stupid gate of the stupid school. cool hur? now i've got a really really beeg bruise on my left leg. yes. a BIG BIG bruise. and it hurts. yes. IT HURTS A HELL LOT. i can't jump onto my bed anymore. poor me hur?

band was cuckoo. after band went out with the girls. i like spend 40+ bucks? furst time mann! woohoo~

(cin_ismine)(jolene_ismine)

hehes~

2005-02-17T19:26:00.000+08:00

ooohs. ii wennt fuur thhe 100m triials tuudaay. 16secconds liidat. arouund dhhere. yeaaps. huur2. iim sloww. huur2. dhurno ibb iid gedd iin. (:

iihaatemoose`

2005-02-16T22:33:00.000+08:00

shuckks. iim ddead. ii failedd phyysics, a matth annd e mathh. freakk. ii haab tuu jia you ler. or i'll diie.

go stardee yuu shuttppidd guurl.

2005-02-16T21:45:00.000+08:00

ii shuud be stardeeing now. yes.

bhurrt guues whaard am ii duuing now? worrying abbouut my friiendster accounnt. whyy? ii carrnt siign iin. iim feariing thhat another ass hacked or uused that acc. liike whhard happenedd lasst year. yes. ii wuun fuurget iit. ii wuun.

i swear dhhat ii wuun log inntuu friiendsterr agaiin. (at leasst iin schh_)

fuuck friendstter.

(srry iim damnned piised noow_)

2005-02-14T21:02:00.000+08:00

whhees. okkhs. tuudaae ~~wuus~~ is valentines/friendship daae. huur2. guurt a balloon, a cd (ii heart that cd maan!), a flower, chocolates fruum shar, a bagde fruum hy, a rose frrum karyn. huur2. siianded.

iim having a headache now. ii feel liike puking. ii feel like fainting.

bb

2005-02-13T11:23:00.000+08:00

ah shucks. iim deadd.

iive nuurt bouught the testt tuubess!! how am ii suup tuu giib iit tuu thhem tmr??

sharrks.

2005-02-11T22:23:00.000+08:00

chaoo crazee. guuo hongg's chharr's lao gonng.

shho noww i askkiing ee loong tuu be my lao gongg. whuu ask hiim so suuay tuu be inn dhhe conversatiion tuu. X:

*fifteen miinutes later* ii succeeded. hur2. yay! fruum now on can go ji siiao hiim ler. *wiinks*

2005-02-11T17:23:00.000+08:00

ii feel so ps-ed.

ddey wennt tuu bugis WIVVOUT MIIE!

finne.

hur2.

charr! whhy diid yuu haffta tell mii yuuaww had so muuch fuun??! ii wuus stardeeiing chiinese fuur dhhe whole affternoon (whiile yuu all were havving fuun).

fiine. shall nuurt brood overr dhhat stuupid matter.

hur2. valentines day's coming. hafta buy presents lerr. att leastt iim nuurt cashhless. iive guurt cash. iits a matter of whethher ii cann go ouut. bleahhs.

iim havving a terribble headachhe agaiin. annd my eye baags are baqq. ):

2005-02-09T23:13:00.000+08:00

shit man.

my eyes are swollen. yes. S-W-O-L-L-E-N. yeaps. i cried this morning la. cried too much. cos i had a severe cramp this morning at my grandma's house. then it was like awfully painful. so therefore ya durhs. i cried. i've got a really low tolerance for pain. (x

ohmigosh. i'm so dead. i just realized that i've got 2 a math exercises to do. ohmigoshohmigoshohmigosh. i won't be able to finish them. i promise you that. hur2.

i hate that pear. GRRRRRRRR!

2005-02-09T02:43:00.000+08:00

shucks! there's something wrong with my blogskin. ehehs. quent, if you see this post, do me a favour. help me change it/edit it. whatever. just do something to it to make it WORK. (x thanks! (:

2005-02-08T19:41:00.000+08:00

bwaahahahas! i got in! oh yea!

so therefore. now i got to work harder. yes. mr wong and justin said that there'll be only 2 quackers 'allowed' to quack during syf. oh geez.

today was madness. i had to wake up so early! T.T yes. then after the performance thing i met jane. woosh. she had to wait for so long for me. then quent called. ask me to go to bugis. so i ran all the way out of school with jane. waited for the cuckoo bus. then rushed there. found two cuckoos across the road. oh man. then those two cuckoos followed us around. yes. like bodyguards. though i really don't see the need for two. then walk here walk there. i started to get pissed. hur2. then i stomped all over bugis. in the end, i took an mrt home. and ran all the way home from the mrt station. hur2.

heys jane, sorry bout today wors! and good time trying to find out who i like~ (x you guess bu dao de!

2005-02-07T18:52:00.000+08:00

hur2. i'm sick. yeaps. i feel like puking. i've having a headache (reason for puking). i'm having a fever. but i still don't want to go rest.

i feel so cuckoo(ified). i threw a piece of paper at him during a math. and yes! there were stuff that he wasn't supposed to see. but thank goodness. he didn't see it. cause hy's purple pen covered all of what he wasn't sup to see. yea. i know i'm not making any sense but whatever. i'm sick.

oh no! i forgot to blog about my auditions. man. it sucked like hell la.

psst. let me tell you. i split my reed right before the auditions. and i was like. OH MY GOODNESS! i'm going to fail man. so, being the smart alec that i am. i went into the QM room. told mr wong: uhs can i say a disclaimer first. he said no. ok so fine. i started playing the first movement with grace's old china reed. i was squeaking and sounding as if i was strangled at parts, no sound was made. then the third movement was like played with chloe's chipmunk reed. yeaps. it squeaked. i feaked. i was like: DIE DIE DIE! am i going to fail this cuckoo audition. so when i finished with it all, he asked what was my disclaimer. fine. i told him that i was using grace's and chloe's reeds. hur2. didn't really help much though. i still felt like crap. and since it was rehearsal day i went back to the stupid freaking hot audi. i cried la. wth. it's like. i've not cried for so long ler. (wrong. that previous statement was totally wrong.) so ya. whatever. i like scolded that 4gr guy (or was it the day before? never mind).

so to summarize all of what i've been crapping a paragraph before this, i'd like to announce that I'VE APPRENTLY INTO THE THINKING THAT I FALIED THAT AUDITION AND I FEAR THAT THAT MIGHT ACTUALLY COME TRUE IF I STILL DON'T BOTHER TO PRACTICE. yeaps.

and a gentle reminder to myself: GO WORK ON PARAGRAPHING YOU SILLY GIRL!

that's all for today. my head's about to burst.

p.s tan eng chiu a.k.a t-rex a.k.a pear confiscated my phone. but you see, being a genuis *ahem*, i was able to get it back from her. (:

2005-02-03T23:16:00.000+08:00

yes. i'm blogging.

yes. i've got tests tomorrow.

yes. i've got that stupid audition coming up TOMORROW.

iim ddead.

2005-02-01T20:02:00.000+08:00

chhao xiian larr. tmmr guurt tiing xiie. tmmr iish fuurst lessonn oof e matth by mrrs tohh. tmmr guurt auuditions. tmmr i'll diie.

strressed..

2005-01-28T23:47:00.000+08:00

niice larr. dhhe stuupiid internett wuus downn. cldnnt blogg tiill noww. ahhhh.

tuuday, wuus juus tuuday. nuufiink speciial.

bttw, ii wuus tuu attitude iin 7elevenn. ii nnoe.

2005-01-27T21:13:00.000+08:00

ohh mii goosh! may's shiirt wuus untuckked tuuday!! woow!

ii meann. iits liike onnce iin a full moonn dhhat euu see herr shiirt unntuckked!!!

d:

2005-01-25T18:50:00.000+08:00

whhhe. dentall tuuday. gorrt GLOW INN THHE DARRK rubber bannds. WOOAH. buuden dr onng sayy thhat iff euu wann itt tuu gloww, shiine torrchlighht on iit dhhen caan gloww larr. hahas.

liike shiit lohhs. tmrr howw tuu play? oh mann. mostt prolly playiing ii recommened lohhs. bleahss~

my teethh/guums huurt liike madd.

arggh.

2005-01-24T18:47:00.000+08:00

whhhee. fuurgortt tuu briing myy matth book bacck.

iim shho smarrt. ii kiip fuurgettinn tuu briing my homewerrk. ii frequentlly nott duu mii homewerrk. ii getting frrum badd tuu worstt. aahhhh. iil die iff i continnue.

savve mii~!!

2005-01-23T16:57:00.000+08:00

yess. iim makking itt a poiint tuu go baqq tuu KHS thiis CNY. hehhes. iive norrt seenn johnn, yiing yiing, melissa, xinn yuu, janne, cally, karrel, jaccinnta, yiing han, etc etc fuur soo LONG. ohh manns.

ii wondder:
-iif johnn iss stiuu as bu yao liian as evver.
-iif yiing hann is stiuu as shyy as everr.
-iif xiin yuu iis stiuu called curlyy currly.
-iif cally haas grrown x____x
-iif mel stiuu talkks so muuch.
-iif jaciinta iis stiuu as cute. haahas.

oh wells.
ii wonnder.

ii miss 603.

2005-01-21T20:22:00.000+08:00

iim fakking it. haaha. ii toldd mii momm dhhat imm duuinn myy sciience wrrk sheet.

hheehes.

iim badd.

ii feel so muuch bettar afft clearriin suumtiings up. (:

----+----

iim liisteniin tuu depressiinn sonngs noww. madd hurrh? graviity by emmbrrace iis niice! iits so freakkin niice!!! (: hahass.

woochiing spy kiids nnow. hehess. so cool~ x:

tatass.

2005-01-20T22:32:00.000+08:00

i hate myself.
i hate myself for creating this whole stupid mess.
chessia's going to have to clean it up.
chessia's going to have to shut up about it.
fullstop.

2005-01-16T15:46:00.000+08:00

whhhee!!! i lurrb thiis niiu skiin!!! ii madde it!!!!!!

wwwwwooooossssshhhhhh! i rawwk.
riight?

hahass.

wl. thhe bbq piit cauusedd shho muuch troouble. haate iit. duuno whuus iis itt. oh wells. hheehes.

damnned. i gorrt suunburrnt ytdd.

annd now iim feeliin vehh giddy. ii feel liike faiintiin NOW.

faiint annd diie~
[norrt funni]

2005-01-16T14:06:00.000+08:00

thhis suucks.

whyy arr ppl giibiin my nuumberr tuu peoplle i duuno? sickkening. iits liike. iin thhe lasst three dayys. ii receiive fuur mssgs frmm ppl i duuno. wtth?

gettaliife

l

2005-01-15T20:30:00.000+08:00

we usse tuu go fuur coffee annd wee ussedd tuu go tuu talkk,
remmemberr tiimes we ussed tuu shhare annd soonn dhhey'll all be gonne.
sunnii dayys annd summertiime wunn be dhhe samme agaiin,
euuvve gonne awayy, norrt fadde awayy,
dhhere's no telliin whhen...

tiings wiiu staay thhe samme,
urr gonne ann iim herre tuu staay
iim goiing awayy,
my feeliings wiiu norrt chhange,
friiendss fuurevver, gibb orr takke

furrs daay att scch walkked intuu class,
tuu all thhose starriin eyes,
thhey lookedd att mii so differentlee, ii carrnt iimagine whyy,
ii hadd tuu leavv myy homme ann friiends, tuu cuum tuu thhis plaace.
tiings arr straange ii feel thhe paiin, ii do noww feel thhe samme.

tiings wiuu be thhe samme,
uur gonne ann iim here tuu sttay
iim goiing awayy,
myy feeliings wiiu norrt chhange
frriendds fuurevver, giibb orr
takke my liife awayy
everiitinngs chhangiing noww
ii duu norrt feel thhe samme
iim goiing homme, iim norrt herre tuu sttay.
friiendds fuurevver, giib or takke

[puugg jelly- givv orr takke (accoustiic verrsion)]

2005-01-15T19:50:00.000+08:00

suumtiimes, iits guud tuu confess suum sttuffs.

buuden, ivv euu tiink dhhat thhe outcuum wuud norrt be goodd. DUUN go connfess. euu wuun feel good.

yaa. so ii criied tuu tiimes tuuday. siickeniin. whyy wuun peopple leavve mii alonne. stopp maaking mii feel baad? ya? please. ivv gorrt enuff of all thiis s***.

annd yaa. myy darliin chhar. yuu duun niid tu tell hiim. ya? iit juus madde my daay worrst. buud att leastt ii nooe. so, uhhs. thannks annd no thhanks. x___x

iits besst iff shuum tiings arr lefft unnsaiid.

bttw, thhanks kanng ronng fuur helppinn mii gett myy wallet. thhankks waiitenng fuur accompaning mii baqq tuu scch. lurrbb euu tuu. x___x

2005-01-14T21:32:00.000+08:00

a) ii haate tiico tiico.
b) iits a cucckoo piiece thhat i carrnt playy.
c) iits a freakking piiece thhat ii cann nvvr pllay.
d) my fiingerss arre rettardedd.
e) my brracess cuut my moutth.

periiod.

i hatte tiico tiico. myy freakkinn fiingerrs arr tuu retardedd tuu play. so iis my tonggue. ya? happii? tuuday playy untiiu i cryy. thhen ii crussh upp thhe sccore. thhen afft bannd. ii gorrt tuu fall inn. budden thhat scorre iss miine lohhs! ok. shho liib heaad diin pumpp mii. yaahs?

tmmr ~~grillinn~~ drilliin. waahahas. >.<

ii'll hhope iit wuun raiin.

ii'll be prrayiin itt wuun raiin.

2005-01-13T19:59:00.000+08:00

whheeee. ii shho feeww liike wrritiin iin prrpoerr enngweesh. buuden ii carrn.

maddness. i owwe ppl moneyy. x___x jollenne, chhan xii, hhonggshheng. whhes. X:

wennt fuur unniiforrm chheckk tuudayy. whhe. kenna puumped agaiin. hehes. shuuangg ahh. X: iim abiit madd. tookk outt myy obboe. pllay abitt. dhhen wennt tuu crrap wivv thhe resst. WAHHAS.

acctuualii, tuuday norrt realli jiing caii. blleahs. o___o

elecctiive hiistorry succks. iive gorrt tuu learrn tuu lovve itt.

ii lurrbb electiivve hiistorry!!!!!!!!

maddness! x___x

2005-01-11T19:26:00.000+08:00

whhhee. tuudayy almmost laate fuur bannd. x___x mommii wokke upp laate mahhs. dhhen evveriiwann laate. hhhas. takke cabb tuu scch. rann all dhhe wayy tuu bannd roomm. norrt laate. PHEW! hahass.

all dhhe lessonn vehh borring. engg nthh happenn. CME wuus a waaste of tiime. wennt tuu libb. maddness. hahas. creatiive arrts. kenna suuan byy jolenne. x___x s.s shoo borring. scii i pon. wennt siick bayy wiiv huuan yuett. blahhs. buuden carrn blamme mii. ii gorrt gasttric. ii stayy inn class makke itt worst. dhosse cuckkos (thhe guyys).

bannd wuss maddness. ii criied. cussh of __________________. bleahhs. yaar. dhhen wennt tuu hellp fluute auuditiion dhhe secc waans. bleahhs. dhhen go crrap wivv dhhe secc tuus. hahass. dhhen we kiip makkinn fuun of mrs eeu/uu/eeew/yyuu (dunno howw tuu spell larr x___x) hahas. dhhenn i tolld nicc. x___x (nuuthiin tuu duu maas.) siiandedd. ii realiize durrinn bannd, dhhe onlii secc thrrees dhhat ii interacct wivv arr grracce, catt annd wenndy. itts liike. -______- gett it? uhhhs.

hahass. ii guess i shhouldd channge mii attitude probblem. shouuld makke it smallerr. cussh suumwann saiid iit wuus tuu bigg. o____o eeeeeeeeewwwwwwwwwww.

oh shiit. fuurgorrt tuu duu e matth hw. AHH SHHITT. baiibaii tjc.

wooah!

2005-01-10T21:14:00.000+08:00

ahh crrap. thiis iis craazee. thiis is unnacceptabble. ii hhate itt lohhs. thhat teo chonng yeoww kiip diisrruptiing class witt hiis witty but irritatting commentts. annd hiis 'talkk cocck' durring ms liims class.

HAHA! wll. tuudayy ms liim gorrt reall piissed of wivv chongg yeoow sayying 'talkk cockk'. shhe gavv hiim thrree choiices as punnishmennt. 1) talkk tuu hiis cockk fuur waan miin. 2) makke fifteen sentences wivv thhe wrrd cockk inn itt. 3) talkk abouut cockk fuur waan miin. so cuckko loohs. thhen thhat chonng yeow stiiu thhinkk itts funnii. wtth.

dhhen lunnch wuss crrap lohhs. canteenn shoo crrowdedd. sho mii, grracce, ammannda nn ann yuu wennt tuu dayy nn niightt (agaiinst thhe scch ruules duhh!) ann eatt. hahas. X: (ii swwear thhat i'll orrderr mccs nxxt week!!). walkk baqq thhat tiime raiin. wll. wett liike shhiit lohhs. we ruun liike siiao. hahas. dhhen ann yuu beecamme shoo sexxyy. herr schh uu wuus transpaarennt. x____x

siiandedd. ii annoyeed suumwann. (smarrt ass. v___v) wahhhaas. X:

ii waan tuu crry. giimmie a shouulderr!!

2005-01-09T15:37:00.000+08:00

tuudayys suppa borring.

nuffing tuu duu. apartt frmm irritatinng shuumwann. x)) buuden i failled. cushh daat person norrt enuff msgs. o___o daan maa dad sayy duunwan tuu go kino. cuckkoo. dann he sayy waan go buuy laptopp ann handdphhone furr myy bro. shoo unfaiir. ii alshoo waan. hahaas. im goingg tuu askk hiim tuu buuy a niuu hp fuur mii ivv i gett 65 annd abovv fuur mii miid yearrs. hehess. x___x demanndinng huhh?

imm doomedd. i duuno howw tuu duu my geogg nn matth homeworkk. ann iim tuu lazee tuu finishh my chiinese. siiannded.

2005-01-08T18:41:00.000+08:00

[note: myy lonngesst posst evva]

funn.

yeass. thatts dhhe worrd. funn's thhe worrd tuu desccribe tuuday. X: okk. itts norrt gudd enouugh. budd i carn thinkk off a bettarr wrdd.

cca orrienntatiion maas. *wiinkks* shoo funn. wennt arroundd promottingg bannd. budden i thiink ii vehh shii1 baii4. cussh i onlii gorrt 11 nammes annd wee dinn miit ourr exxpectatiions ofv 200 ppl. X:

walkk here walkk derre. dhhe secc 1s all vehh dao. yuu talkk tuu dhemm, dhey juus waalk away de. -.-" shho ruude. wahhas. managedd tuu gett twwo orr thrree ppl tuu go furr thhe auutitionn. grrace, chhloe walkk herre, walkk theere. carrnt fiind anyywann dhhats innterestted inn bannd. (iss bannd dhhat badd??) dhhen we saww perrc annd dhhe restt att concouurse. tott cann resst, annd chitt-chhat wivv dhe ppl dhhere. dhhan dhey askk uus tuu dancce. -___- dannce dannce loohs. budden vehh emmbarassing. X: hahas. all dhhe parrentts dhhere.

aftt dhhe oriientation. kanna pumpedd againn. yttd pump untiiu ii cuut my knee. annd thhe skiin onn myy hannd came outt. niice. tuuday havv tuu puump agaiin. wahahaas. >.<

period.

aww geez. friienddsterr roccks. dhey uppgradded. ^___- ii lurrbb ffrienddsterr. itts suuuu mucch fasster. X:

lisstenninn tuu depressinn songgs noww. shoo ii mitte sounnd depressinn.

period.

givvin up soundss easyy. budd givvinn upp aaint a choiice. shhumtiimes wenn yuu look att sthh, itt mayy seem realli difficuult, realli hardd tuu overrcumm. euu juus wanaa givv upp. budd apprentlee itts norrt a choiice thhat euu cann choose. euu havv tuu perserrverr. duu urr bestt.

ii noee dhhat ivv gorrt tuu chhange. budd summtimess, ii finnd itt realli hardd. soo mucch so dhhat ii juss feel liike givvin up. lett ppl hatte mii. andd noww itts thhe summtimess. ii juss wanaa ggibb upp. ii dunn wanaa tryy. cussh no matterr howw harrd i tryy. ii feel dhhat ivv norrt channged a single bitt. ii feel dhhat imm stiiu dhhe oldd chessiaa. dhee wan dhatts realli bitchiie, realli meann, realli flirrty, rudde tuu seniiors. dhhe wann huu bei4 pann-ed my friiendds, huu iss succha actt cuute paiin inn dhhe arrse. dhhe wann huu dinn bothher boutt aniitingg, huu didd thiings wivvout thiinkin. ibb norrt, worst.

iits norrt easee tuu chaange. itt mayy soundd easee. budd dhe truthh of itt all, itts norrt. tryy. tryy changgin.

tiime passes. annd whiile itts passingg, ii lostt all my selff confidencce, my selff respecct. ii lostt thhe will tuu beliieve inn myselff. ii nidd ttime tuu gaiin thesse bacck. ii niid tiime tuu chhange. juus gibbmii tiime. i'll provve myy worrth. i'll prrove myselff.

i'll prrove tuu eeu dhatt i cann changge.

2005-01-06T20:33:00.000+08:00

lessonns tuudayy werre crrap.

chhem wuss totallyy borringg aparrt frmm the letts-go-duu-wann-more thinngiie annd thee OMG-itts rainninn thinngiie. oh oh! annd mii writingg onn dhha ~~tissue~~ toilet paper annd askkingg ppll tuu siignn. X___X

phyysiccs wuss worstt. didd dhhe pennduluumss thinngyy AGAIN! lyykk wee dinn duu dhhat lasst yearr. XX:

oooohs. annd summwann pleeasee ennliighten mii onn whuus goiing furr dannce furr crreatiive arrts? o___o

period.

yuu knnow. summtyyimess ii reallii feel lyyk doiing myy besst inn everrii siingle tiing ii duu. sttudiies, bannd, sociiallee, ettc ettc. ii juss carrn. duun askk mii why. (i knnew yuu werre abouut tuu.) buut thatts dhhe wayy itt is.

annd shuumtiimes, ii feell totallii ennthuu iin stth. dhhann shuumwann HAS tuu cumm ann makke mii so un-enthuu (iff theeres shuchh a worrd).

shoo apprenntlee yuu see myy frieends. ii duu tinngs accorrdiin tuu mii feelinngs. ivv i ffeel liike norrt duuinn itt. ddere's NO poiint forrcinn mii. yahhs?

wuus talkkinn tuu summwann whuu kinnda liike oppenedd upp tuu mii. reallizedd some stufffs. learrnt summ thinngs frmm thhat personn. yeahhs. NO WANN wannts tuu be treeattedd liike nobbodyy. gett myy poiint? o___o

ii hatte myy ee maath teaccher. shhe ougght tuu be shott.

2005-01-05T21:11:00.000+08:00

whhhhhhhhheeeeeeeeee.

wanaa commplaiin bouut my E matths relieff chherr. shhe succks! shhe juus grraduuatedd loohs. havven eveen gorrt herr resuultss yeet. dhann shhe teaach dhhat tiime nowann listenns dee. hehees. ok larrs. onlii a feww. a MINORRITYY. yahhs?

thrru dhha whoole lessonn, shhe wuss talkkinn tuu herrselff. maddness. herr voicce iss soo soofftttt! -___-" ann wuut morre, herr chinaa accennt isshh sooo strrongg wenn shee sppeakks enngliish. dhhann ii wuss liike 'uhhhhh' dhhen i dinn bothherr tuu liistenn lerr. heehhees. finishhedd my A matths homeworrk. ^___^

whhee. dunnwanaa blogg lerr. SIANDDEDDD!!!

^_______________^ <--- that's a biggg smiliiiee!

cee yaa~

2005-01-04T19:33:00.000+08:00

ohhs. dhhat cuuckkoo possedd as yuun kuann. arrse. haatee hiimm!!! cucckkkoooo!!

tuudayy kannaa chinnese homeworrk. eeeeeeew!

tuudayy alsso gorrt electiionns. hehees. jiaayingg chaiir. huuiijiie vicce chairr. alberrt treasurerr. wahhliiaoo. albberrt dunnoo howw tuu collectt moneyy de. collecct dee monney dann givv mii keep. (budd duhhs! i nvrr takke. whhicch persson wldd takke??) o___o

finiinallee finnissshhedd mii chinnese werrk. hehess. affterr thrre hourrs off procrasstiinnatiinggggg. X: hehhess.

dunno whyy. itss gettingg coldder these dayys. maddness. inn scch colld, att hoome colld, onn ddhe buss colld, inn dhhe carr coldd, slppingg att nigght coldd. >___< crrraaazziiiee. myy daddii ssayy dhhat ittss cussh off thee tssunnamii. o___o??

(:

woochinng teevee noww. hehes. taattass.

*wavess franntiicallyy anndd ennthhusiastiically*

ciiaoo~

p.s., chhessiaa vowws norrt tuu be succhaa bittchh diss yearr. ;)

2005-01-03T20:11:00.000+08:00

ohh maddness! ii typped outt dhhe whoole enntrii dann dhee stuupiid blogger deleteed myy whoole postt. IIIIIDDDDIOTT!

btww, schh oppen lerr. (duhh!) wahahss. ddhee class wuus nortt as baad as i tthot itdd be. hehess. wahahas. >__<

dhhee chinesse cherr isshh shoo toot! >__< shhe cumm inn furrst lessonn talkk boutt donno wutt moviie. talkk boutt dunno wutt charittyy thinggyy. talkk boutt ddhe tsunnamii. talkk boutt dhhe puursonn whuu wrrotee turrn leftt, turrn rigght. (whuu btww, iss jimmy.) dhhann shhee talkk boutt kuung fuu huusttle. craapp! dann afft herr lessonn wuuss luncch. luunchh dann geogg. geogg borringg. talkk boutt donno wutt riverrs. assembblee wuuss worrstt. dhhe neew priincipall wuus shiit. talkk shoo mucch crrap. talkk furr boutt wann hourr leaa! o___o hess gorrtt loadss tuu talkk boutt. dunno whyy soonn kuuehh didd spott checck tuu see iff neewann skiipedd assemblyy. hheh. checck seec threes nn furrs onlii. dunn checck secc tuus. biassed. X___X hhees.

whheee. shoo laate lerr. ii go revisse wutt evva mss sohh layy naa tauughtt tuudayy dann go slpp lerr. hheehees.

ciiao~~